The title is a lyric from a song in Wicked... but it pertains to something the song doesn't. This sudden and new feeling I realized over this past weekend is homesickness. And I am experiencing it for the first time at 20 years old! As of today, I have officially been home for four weeks, so one month basically, and I'm really not that happy and I've been trying to figure out why... Working 30-35 hours a week, mostly very late nights is a pain, but shifts can be fun sometimes, so that's not it. But I mean, I've gotten home, and almost all of my best friends are home, but no one is ever free to hang out or do anything, or we're just too lazy to plan anything. I feel that I've been trying so hard to hang out with people, but my schedule makes it hard. Almost every day for me has consisted of waking up, going to the gym, tanning at the pool, eating and catching up on some One Tree Hill that I tivo-ed or some 30 Rock on Netlfix, and then going to work for the night. EVERY FREAKIN' DAY JUST ABOUT. There have been some dinners, some movies with friends here and there, but I am just not enjoying the summer.
Earlier I mentioned homesickness. Well, I'm at home... but the homesickness I'm experiencing is for Boston. Not BC per se, because it is a HUGE relief to have a break from the school work and activities, especially since next semester will be my hardest yet, but I just miss Boston SO MUCH. And I am convinced that's why I'm so unhappy down here in good ol' Virginia. I've only been in the city once since I've been home and I realized that I really don't like DC, and I don't think I ever really did. I was just trying so hard to make it work, but after two years up in Boston for school, I realize that's where I want to be. In exactly one week I'll be back there for four days and I could not be more excited.
I'll be staying with Amanda, we've got some beach plans and some drive in plans, and some of my other friends up there found out I'm coming and they already want to plan things! So, I'll be up there for 4 days and am not going to have time to see everyone that I want to, while I'm down here all summer and friends here can't even find time to hang out. Boston: 1, McLean: 0.
I wish I could go up there again at the end of July but I just really shouldn't be spending the $ on another flight and taking time off work again. I told my mom about how sad I am and she said I can look at all of this in a good light because sometimes it takes not having something, or in this case, being somewhere, to realize how much you love it. Well, I'm thankful for that, then.
You were only unhappy during the times you were not being told what to do by yours truly. ;)
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